The Fusion Of Writing & Life To Bring Depth To An Individual | #Life #Writing #WritingCommunity

“Life is too important to be taken seriously”
– Oscar Wilde

“All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make, the better.”
– Ralph Waldo Emerson

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September 5, 2019

Life is experienced in a full kaleidoscope of circumstances that show the endless ways that it can be experienced.  How we choose to experience those circumstances will ultimately dictate what we get out of them, and how much meaning and depth will be had.

One of the vanguard reasons I love writing is because it allows for the exploration of life through the written medium, which showcases countless writing styles, but also because it allows you to examine meaningful circumstances at length, but more importantly, to record them as a time capsule of sorts for yourself, or for others.  Additionally, the wisdom garnered from many of the most astute individuals in the past still lives on, all due to their choice to pen their thoughts in timeless fashion.

This merger of an individual’s experience and creative process, brought about through writing, still resonates today.  Such instances not only allows individuals to learn from the past in myriad ways, but ultimately also aids individuals to live a better life, a wiser life, a more fulfilling life, all because those individuals took pen to paper and seared their voices into the pages of history after imprinting the insights they learned through the trials and tribulations they faced. 

That is incredible power, not only because words have the influence to change people’s lives as well as history in significant ways through their inherent resonance, but words add depth to life that at times can be looked upon time and again for those with appreciation of it, as is the baseline for these thoughts.

Don’t ever underestimate the power of writing, whether it is blogs, paper notes, letters, creative writing, poetry, fiction, short stories, and so on, to add depth to your life and those of others.  For just like a mindful and deep breath brings a moment of clarity, no matter how fleeting it may be, the act of writing can also bring clarity that can allow not only for the recording of meaningful circumstances that took place in an individual’s life, but this also allows for more incisive examination of meaning within the very fibers of life, the untold depths that often go unexplored not only in the moment, but later on. 

 Such circumstances while possibly seemingly insignificant at the time, might just echo through the end of time.

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Blackburn Musings #5: Looking Back, Looking Forward | #Writing #WritingCommunity #Life

“In this moment there is plenty of time.  In this moment you are precisely as you should be.  In this moment there is infinite possibility.”
– Victoria Moran

Seeing that the musings have become my unofficial journal of sorts, I’m going to continue with it given how much better it feels to vent and speak of certain things on my mind.

Jumping right in, this past weekend was the first weekend in as long as I can remember, many years in fact, that I was totally to myself.  I had no plans, except my usual ones, no family in town, no nothing; it was a blank slate.  In the past I totally would have picked up the phone and gotten a hold of some people to hang out, but I thought that perhaps I’d do something different and just take extended time for myself.  It’s not that I haven’t taken a day or so to myself before, I certainly have, but there’s a big difference between a day, and four days just doing your own thing.

I preface this entry with the aforementioned because out the blue I decided to go to the park after being the place I venture to on the weekends which I call the Pizzeria, though it’s not that by any means, it’s just that pizza’s my default food there, so I employ that nickname.  Anyways, on Saturday night, after having been there and closing out the place while writing for nigh 4 hours or so, I decided while heading home that I would stop by a park.  It was totally spontaneous, which is something that I don’t mind doing now, though I certainly wouldn’t have ever in a million years thought of doing that in the past.

I was nice to just continue do what I was doing at the previous place which was write, and when coupled with stargazing, it was a whirlwind of inspiration.  I often find myself very energized when leaving the Pizzeria, but there’s just nothing to do except usually head home.  In any case, I spent so much time there that I didn’t get home until like 5 or 6?  I thought I would only spend an hour there, but time flies when you’re mind is operating at Warp 9.  I wound up thinking and/or writing about goals, things I need to work on, things I’ve overcome and things that I’m not being mindful about, mainly my health, but certainly MANY other things.  It’s just that my health would benefit the greatest from mindfulness given that everything else in my life stems from that.  If my health is dismal, then everything else follows suit.

The point is that it was just nice to relax and not have to worry about work, or life, or anything, and just write and/or think.  Granted, I do that very often, but never in such a way.  If anything, there was a lot more clarity and depth, which allowed me to pen my thoughts more incisively throughout and also conceptualize current and future goals I would like to achieve, along with a whole host of other things.

I’m just trying more often to be in the moment, slow down a bit, because Heaven knows sometimes I get so busy, though admittedly its by choice, that I forget to slow down and be mindful or considerate about things.  But I find often, that when I do slow down, it’s emblematic of having been sprinting in a marathon and all of a sudden you’re allowed to breathe and catch your breath finally.

My life’s changed so much the last year, particularly the last 6 months or so, and I just wonder I am going to be and what projects ideas and things I am going to be doing a year from now.  In one sense, I’m nervous because my life has often taken drastic turns, and not always for the better, but I’m mostly hopefully and excited given that even though there’s been drastic turns in my life before, it’s never been insurmountable, even though at times it might have seen as such.

I don’t see why I wouldn’t be doing this blog a year from now, so hopefully when a year from today passes by, I can look back retrospectively not only in appreciation, but in curiosity as to how much my life has changed, what things I’ve delved into, what things I’ve been working on, and countless other things. 

I might do a quick year in a review in a rough sense of the past year now that I think of it, but I’m still uncertain about that.  It might be neat to do a quick synopsis of lots of successes and failures, and what I can glean from each so I don’t end up making the same mistakes and hopefully help others as well so they don’t make the same mistakes as me.  We’ll see.

You all have a wonderful evening.
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Author’s Note:

I’ve been incredibly busy today organizing my home office that looks more like a disaster triage center than an office, but let’s just pretend to make it more palatable. My original intent was to do my usual posts, share poetry, and so on, but I decided to put all that on the back burner given that organizing was more important, and something that if I do it correctly (*Crosses Fingers*) then I won’t have to do it again for a long time. The core parts of organizing that is, not the regular little things like index card notes or sticky notes that I’m bound to scatter all over the place like a tornado.

I also plan on writing a post on the subject of “Why I Write”, which I thought would be a neat concept that was brought about an IG user named FacelessVerity. They had two posts in sequence talking about why they wrote, and I found it very intriguing and refreshing, so I thought I would write something similar. That entry won’t fall under a regular musings given that it’ll be at the foundation about writing, but I’m still stoked to perhaps walk through all (or most) reasons as to why I write.

It’s my contention that writing is one of those concepts that can do a lot more for the world than people give it credit for, but that’s a whole different topic I would like to discuss in the future. You all take care.
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Blackburn Musings #4 – Always Listen To Your Mom | #Mom #Family #Life #WritingCommunity #Prose #Poetry

You know, someone once told me “Always listen to your Mom, because one day you won’t be able too.” That hit me hard. I’ll always remember that piece of advice, well over 20 years ago.

Today, when I was helping her with something, she was venting about a random issue that I often try and urge her not to stress about given that its really not that important since she stresses herself out considerably, and I was going to tell her just to take it easy for a moment, but I didn’t. I just listened to her talk for the next 30 minutes because I knew that one day eventually she wouldn’t be talking to me anymore, and that just shattered me to pieces.

Thankfully she couldn’t tell because I’ve learn how to wear a mask so long that she can’t even tell the difference, plus the last thing I want her to do is worry about me when I’m just thinking about her and how much I’m going to miss her one day.

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Blackburn Musings #3 – That Guy | #Writing #WritingCommunity #Life #NoctisBlackburn

“We write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospect.”
– Anais Nin

“My inspiration tends to come from two words. The two most important words to a writer: what if?”
– Beth Revis




A random and yet intriguing thought just hit me.  Many a year ago, when I used to live in Arizona, I used to venture to this place called Fox & Hound.  When I went out, it was usually my friends and I venturing to Fox & Hound, which was a Sports Bar that featured pool tables, dart boards and other games, decent food and good music.

Back then, I remember seeing (and then meeting) a guy that always sat in the corner, with his laptop, that was always writing.  I always wondered how he, or anyone else really, could be writing on a Friday night, Saturday or even Sunday night, when there was so many other fun things to do.  Of course, fun is relative, and what might be enjoyable to one person, might not be to another.  He was friendly, and we talked from time to time and played pool, but he usually just wrote. 

Fast forward to current times, it’s kind of ironic that that’s exactly what I do nowadays.  I just venture on Friday and occasionally Saturday nights to the same place, because I know that not only is the music great, the vibes are awesome, but knowing the staff helps a lot.  Finding a place where you find kinship in sure helps when you’re just trying to get work done or help pass the time perhaps.   Now I I think I get how that guy might have felt, whereas then I did not.

While I don’t mind meeting people, and even used to go out of my way to try and meet them, I’ve found comfort in just being by myself and let life lead me where it may.  I have no problem with that at all.  I do really enjoy meeting people, or having good times where I go to write, but really, my main goal’s definitely writing.  That’s what I go there for, and that’s what I usually do.  I’m glad I was able to knock out more than 9 hours of writing over the weekend over both days, which was awesome because it was the first weekend in many years that I literally was by myself and could do anything I could do, and yet I chose to write. 

I’m exhausted of trying to build relationships, acquaintances, friends, trying to get to know people of all types and so on, with no significant reciprocation taking place.  If I was never one for superficial relationships in the past, I’m even less so now.  I value time way to damn much for me to do something I don’t find enjoyment in or find meaningful in some way.  It’s not that I’m not willing to put effort in meeting people, it’s just that I usually put a significantly more amount of effort than the other person, irrespective of whether they are male or female really, but that’s the thing.  The right people that become friends will make the friendship seem ‘effortless’ (to use a horrible analogy).  What I mean by that is that you just click.  That doesn’t mean you don’t argue or everything’s perfect, not at all.  It’s just that it’s like you’re both kind of along for the same rollercoaster ride and are just there, along for the ride sort of.

Because of all those reasons and others, I just find solace in being comfortable enough to just go, do my thing, get pizza and drinks, and just write. 

Never in a million years did I think I would ever become “that guy” that would just go out on a Friday or Saturday night, not to have a good time, but just to go and follow his passion.  I just love writing so much that’s what leads most of my actions.  Boy do things change!  But I’m okay with that.  Writing is part of of me now, it’s what drives me and I do enjoy doing it to an extent I never thought I would honestly.  It also helps because the place is fun, and it’s the only place I’d be comfortable taking a laptop on a weekend.  The places in downtown here just give you askance glances and the vibes are way different if I want to just do my thing.  Not that the places aren’t fun if you want to grab drinks and have a good time, they’re definitely fun.  I sometimes do lunch and play pool while writing, but that’s it.  There are lots to do and different types of places as well. 

But if I want to write?  Yeah, none of the places there feel comfortable enough for me to just walk up with my work bag, order drinks and food, and get to work.  But that’s cool though, not every place is ever going to have what suits you best, or what you enjoy.  I’m just glad that I was able to find a place where I can knock out a significant amount of work, while still being able to enjoy good vibes and the atmosphere. 

I do wonder how that guy is doing, and whether he’s still writing there.  And if he is, what he’s writing about.  That would be one hell of a conversation if we ever crossed paths again. 

Who knows though, maybe one day in the future I find another place that I enjoy writing at, but at least I know that need not be the case for the time being. 
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Blackburn Musings #2 – Tarot Tuesday

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August 27, 2019

Having no interesting title to roll with, I figured the one above seems proper given that it covers exactly what I’m going to discuss.  That way, whether people are interested or not, they know off the bat, and can either read along or move on to something they find more intriguing.

As a caveat, I’m sharing my recent card draw from two particular decks that I’ll discuss in a moment.  However, my goal is not to convince anyone of anything regarding Tarot cards and so on.  I’m simply showing one small component of my varying interests that has made my life not only intriguing, but quite meaningful in a few respects.  That said, whatever anyone else believes is their belief, and it I think it’s amazing that we have the freedom to believe whatever we wish to.  And while I might agree or disagree with someone on any given subject, I will always support their choice for whatever they believe, whatever they find meaning in, or whatever they find intriguing as well, are some of the things that make life downright incredible for individuals.  There’s no one-size-fits-all approach here.  That would be incredibly conformist, plus life doesn’t operate like that anyway. 

Given the wide kaleidoscope of intriguing subjects that life contains, I find Tarot Cards and such very intriguing because I’ve seen it work for me countless times, as well as others as well.  How often I will speak about this subject, I have no idea to be honest.  It certainly won’t be every day, but it could be during more significant or at least intriguing circumstances.  I’ll let my feelings on the matter and instincts decide when to do what.

Ironically enough, as I mentioned in the previous post, the reason I restarted doing Musings that I was doing on IG a while ago was due one of the card draws.  Now, the cards themselves didn’t suggest me doing journaling or anything similar, though at times some decks do suggest that.  Even so, how I ended up deciding to follow through with some entries was due to a specific card that spoke about my voice.

In any case, the picture below shows the first 3 decks I ever purchased, which are some of my favorites. 

I purchased Moonology first, The Fountain deck next, followed by the Oracle Energy Cards.  All three decks have helped me quite often, and the results are always intriguing.  I also have a few additional decks, 4 or 5, although one is incredibly biased and all positive, which can significantly hamper readings.  I do enjoy the deck, but I don’t pretend that the deck or life will yield ‘only’ positive results.  That doesn’t make too much sense.  I use it on occasion more as a supplement than a go-to deck.

Now, yesterday I drew from the Fountain and the Energy Oracle cards, and later today I’ll draw from 3 additional decks.   Last night I drew 3 cards from the Fountain Deck, and these cards were The Hermit IX, the Page of Swords, and The Fountain card. 

The Page of Swords speaks of bold curiosity, which describes me to a tee.  It speaks of wanting to know everything now, which is something I seek to do relentlessly.  It speaks of learning quickly, logically, while finding my own truth and my vision being incisive.  Moreover, it speaks of being a mental risk-taker, which is a way that I would have never described myself in the past, but it is an accurate description now. 

The Hermit IX card hearkens to quiet observation, which I believe zones in on mindfulness, although the book doesn’t state that at all.  The card speaks of entering the realm of the heart and mind, which is something I am attempting to do in solitude, which ironically enough is something I did over the weekend quite a bit, but that will be discussed in the next entry.  The card speaks of searching for things that are ego-based, which is something else that I am proactively doing, because those couple with fears, so the card’s right on the mark.  The card also speaks of reassessment, focused attention, introspection, letting go of rigid views, and so on. 

The Fountain Card speaks about simply being.  This card speaks of the interconnectedness with everything around, about the illusion of control, while also urging one to remain quiet, not unlike the Hermit card.  (Common themes tend to happen in my draws quite often, which really helps hammer down with precision what I ‘should’ be focusing on, subjectively speaking that is).  This draw invites me to sit back and observe, remain fully awake, seek clarity, while being myself through and through.

From the Energy Oracle Cards, I drew the Community Card, the Angel of Strength Card, and the Door to Personal Healing & Happiness (Reversed).

The Community Card spoke of 3 females in my life sharing their ideas and being supportive.  I believe these to be two of my best friends, and one person that I met weeks ago that’s been downright incredible in helping me in countless ways when it comes to my writing project.  She described herself as a “superfan” but is more emblematic of a one-woman army that’s become a friend, that’s working with various authors on many projects.   

The Door to Personal Healing & Happiness card came reversed.  This means that I’m forgoing inner healing with health, I’m not following through with specific plans which I have set for myself, that self-mastery and discipline have been tough, and that my growth is blocked at the moment.  That’s checkmarks across the board, for the card couldn’t be more accurate.  The card urges that my intentions need to be clear and unconflicted.  It speaks of other things as well, but I’ll leave it at that.

The Angel Of Strength card spoke of speaking my truth and take action on my behalf.  It speaks about taking great control of my destiny, which is something that I’m pushing to a considerable extent while chasing my passion and dreams with writing.  It is this card that spurred me to restart the musings, so I am definitely grateful for that.

Key Takeaways:

All in all, the overall theme subjectively speaking for me was to remain focused, be mindful, stay authentic, be attentive, act from the heart and mind, make sure that my intent remains focused, and make sure I don’t overlook my health, which is something I’ve done a stellar job as of late.  The draw harpooned exactly what I’m going through in life at my current juncture.    

If I had to state the most important parts of the whole draw was not only to be mindful, which affects every other aspect of my life including health, but to make sure I take care of myself, which I haven’t done that well the last few months.  In fact, as some of my friends that do draws as well know, I’ve been getting the “take care of yourself cards” from many decks simultaneously, and have so for weeks.  So the running theme continues because I keep failing at not doing what I need to do. 

That’s part of what I find intriguing about these draws.  While most of the cards will shift and so on, bringing about new perspectives, considerations and so on, specific cards, or specific themes will often remain for days, weeks or months, until they are addressed properly.  I really like that because it’s like I am being put on notice by someone saying, “HEY BUDDY, QUITE SLACKING ON HEALTH!  YOU’RE BETTER THAN THAT!”  Hey, some people learn slower than others, what can I say?  *Shrugs*

I plan on drawing from the Moonology Deck, the Goddess deck, perhaps an animal deck, and another one, although I’m not sure.  I’m still undecided.  If the draw is intriguing, I might write something up.  If it isn’t and it’s more of the same, which happens often (like focusing on health, solitude, etc.) then I just won’t speak of it since it’ll just be a rehash. 

If you’ve read this far, you’re a damn saint, so give yourself a high five and many thanks for taking the time to delve into something so ‘out there’ that most people don’t even consider, yet alone delve into.

You all have a wonderful day. 

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Author’s Note:

I purchased all of these Decks on Amazon. These decks have all sorts of reviews as well, which really helps if you’re trying to narrow down specific decks, or need additional information.
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Blackburn Musings #1 – Life, Writing & Fears | #Writing #WritingCommunity #Life #Motivation #Inspiration #Fear

“To understand your fear, is the beginning of really seeing.”
– Bruce Lee

“Fear is the path to the Dark Side. Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering.”
– Yoda

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August 26, 2019

After a lengthy series of incredibly busy and thought-provoking days,
I’ve finally chosen to restart my ‘Blackburn Musings’. 

This will essentially be sort of an online journal, except not exactly.  What I mean by that is that, although I am sure I will cover personal topics and so on, I will definitely not write here as I would in my journal because that’s just too personal.  That said, I do enjoy writing musings as I find them quite cathartic. 

Moreover, the thoughts I share here will be just like the captions and stories I’ve shared on Instagram or Facebook in the past, except perhaps a bit longer given that there’s no cap on how much you can share like on IG, plus I can write a lot quicker on a keyboard than I can on the phone, which streamlines the writing process to an incredible degree.

With that out of the way I want to get to the backbone of this entry, which revolves around life, writing, and fears.  I’ve chosen these topics because at the current moment it is what I have in mind, and given the integration and importance of these subjects in my life, I find it appropriate to begin an entry on them.

Jump right into the thick of it, the last year of my life has changed at a much faster pace, and to a much higher intensity than any other year.  No other year comes close, not even when I was starting to get rolling with Poker and growing as a player at warp speed.  Now, the main reason I believe the changes in my life the last year have taken place is because at one point I chose to face one of the biggest fears that I had, and thankfully I didn’t buckle like I often did in the past.  Long story short, by facing that fear, I got the confidence to begin facing many other fears, and have continued attempting to jump right into the deep end to face my fears so to speak.  I can’t say I succeed every time, because I do not, but I am definitely a lot more prone to just ‘go for it’ than I was in the past given everything I have learned about myself, life, fears, and so on.

Facing my fears enabled me not only begin living life to a more fulfilling degree than I did in the past, but allowed me to really come to terms with the fact that facing your fears from my subjective point of view, isn’t as bad as it seems most of the time.  I do understand that not everyone fears the same things.  ot every fear, even if it is shared between two people, like the fear of sharks, is of the same magnitude for different individuals. 

For instance, months ago, I was talking to someone via D.M. on Instagram, and I really wanted to ask for help about facing one of my fears, but I was afraid of what that person, or anyone else would say about me being fearful about what I’m going to mention.  Those that are familiar with Instagram will find it humorous, and yet I’m totally serious when I say that one of the fears that I had (and still have) was screwing up on posting stories.  Silly, right?  Well, it doesn’t matter if it’s silly or not, it is one of my fears.  To this day, I have never posted one story, ever.  I am actually surprised nobody asked.  And the one time that I was going to ask someone for help, I totally backed away because I didn’t want to be judged or feel like an idiot, so I didn’t even try. 

The reason I mention this is because as far as fears go, posting a story on social media wouldn’t register under top 100 fears for almost everybody on Earth, and yet, screwing that up is one of my fears.  I have no problem admitting this, because I want others to learn from my mistakes so they don’t have to deal with the same issues that I have dealt with, even if the fears aren’t exactly the same.  I do plan on trying to conquer that fear one day, but that will be in the future given that I’m having incredible issues using Instagram at the moment.  Still, I mention it because it is paramount to what I am trying to impart.

The main reason I mention this is because there was several ways I could have addressed that fear.  I could have (1) asked that person for help, I could have (2) jumped into the deep-end as I simply try it, as I often do, or I could have (3) researched how to do it.  Logical, right?  Simple.  And yet, I never even thought of that until now.  I simply let my fears dictate me not trying due to ‘fear of failure’, if you want to be exact about it.  ‘Fear of ridicule’ is another fear that’s huge, so one could argue that it’s two fears instead of one, but they are both interwoven to the same action. 

Of course, the options mentioned above that could have allowed me to face my fear are obvious, and yet, many of the things that are obvious in society aren’t often followed through with.  Healthy eating is one example of this.  This is mentioned because there are a variety of ways that fears can be addressed, and many times a person can ask for help, like I could have, and the fear would be conquered, or at least faced.  Not ever fear is that easy to conquer though, and that’s okay. 

I say all this because I didn’t even try, and that’s my failure, and I’m okay with that because recognizing it retrospectively allows me to be able to tackle it sometime in the future. 

Coupling back to the main point, the reason I bring this about regarding fear is because where not posting a story was a fear I haven’t conquered, I did conquer some of my other fears in the last year, and these have allowed me to be here, this very moment, writing these very words.  I find it incredible that my life has changed so much, that everything that is happening now in my life at this very moment is because I chose to face one of the biggest fears I ever had.  I don’t think it’s coincidence that such is the case, and I also don’t believe it’s coincidence that my life keeps changing faster and faster the more fears I continue facing.  Granted, this doesn’t mean I’m fearless by any means, I certainly am not.  But I do try and face my fears more often than not than in the past, rather than let those fears rule my choices.

Be that as it may, there are a lot of other factors that have played a role in me being in the current place that I am in, also writing regularly, but everything that followed from that one key point took place because of that one choice I made, and I’m definitely glad I made that choice.  By no means has everything that followed been easy, because it has not been, but I am appreciative of all the circumstances because I’m in a much better place now than I have ever been, though still have worlds of growing to do. 

One of the best parts of facing that fear was not only most of what followed, but the fact that because I was able to conquer that one fear I was able eventually to begin facing another fear, which involved writing and eventually publishing poetry.  The ironic part was that, I did not think I would ever publish poetry until many years down the line, perhaps 5-10 or so.  But one thing lead to another and before you knew it I jumped right into it, where I wouldn’t have even considered doing such a thing in the past, and here we are. 

I share this not only is because conquering fears is important in order not allow them to rule your life, but it’s also incredibly intriguing because by conquering fears, not only can one grow, but also there could be many positive and downright incredible things that could manifest from such choices that would never take place if those fears were not faced.  Yes, this is a subjective point of view, but I’ve talked to quite a few people about facing fears often, and most have had similar circumstances take place to varying degrees.

The last year has been a whirlwind in my life, and even though I have made mistakes, heaven knows I’ve made many, I have learned to be proactive in learning from them, or try to at least, but I wouldn’t change where I am at for the world.  Are there things I wish I did, or didn’t do, or said, or didn’t say, and so on?  HELL YES!!!  But, I am here, and I’m okay with where I am, for it is a much better place than I was a year ago.  This makes me look forward to the future now more than ever.

The future is something that I historically always saw at arm’s length.  I always mentally ‘saw’ tomorrow as ‘over there’, beyond reach.   But for my purposes, that’s not a completely accurate point of view.  I think a more accurate point of view is that, this moment, me writing this, and you reading this, is what we have.  This moment is all we ever have.  The present is definitely a gift not only because of the kaleidoscope of possibilities that exist within it, but because it paves the way for the future that we ultimately attain for ourselvesYes, an eye to the future, and an eye to the past should always be ruminated upon, but you can’t really ‘go’ to the future, the future comes to you.  You always live in the now. 

I say this because the thoughts of living ‘in the moment’, that are admittedly taken from Eastern Philosophy, which I find incredibly intriguing for many reasons, is one of the vanguard considerations I keep in mind every single day.  This doesn’t mean I don’t look forward to the future, nor plan on it, or overlook the past, not at all.  It’s just that I often found myself leaving for ‘tomorrow’ things that I could do this very moment.  Ever the eternal procrastinator, I know, but at least I’ve grown from being a default procrastinator and into a selective-procrastinator.  Ha! 

With all seriousness, I’m just grateful to be here now, this very moment, with everything that’s happened, and while I do wish some things didn’t and did happen, I can definitely say I’m seeking to try and better myself, even if I fail miserably at times.  That brings me solace when I end up feeling like my life and circumstances seem to be spiraling out of control in certain instances. 

I hope you all have a wonderful evening.

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Author’s Note:

Believe it or not, there was a few set of synchronicities that took place that made me choose to write this blog.  The last was that I ended up drawing Tarot Cards from multiple decks, and had I not done that, I wouldn’t even think of restarting the musings until much later.  But for some reason, it felt instinctually right, like many other of the choices that I have made the last year, and I’m glad I’m doing these Musings again because  they allow me to consider ideas that I hadn’t consider before, and also allows me to vent somewhat about issues that could be bothering me.

Interesting enough, though I have never posted about it in the past and only discuss it with my best friends, the next entry will discuss the card draws that I did, and what I believe they may mean.  This is also one of the ways that I am choosing to fight one of my fears head on, which is also why I am doing it.  Of course, Tarot Cards, Oracle Cards, and so on, are a topic that is way out there for most, and that’s okay.   If that’s not your cup of tea, no big deal.

But this is a subject that’s become part of my life recently, and something that I have found incredibly helpful, so I will share it for those that may find interest in it, plus it’s something that I’ve wanted to talk about at length for a while, but never got around to for myriad reasons.

I just find life fascinating from so many different angles that not putting serious thought into those things that you considering most intriguing or love to do the most seems like selling yourself short.  And since I will continue following my passions wherever they may lead me, why not share something else I am passionate about as well?

What are you passion about?  What do you think about fears?  Have you faced any recently?  Do you think about it often?  Are you afraid of posting stories on Social Media?  Ha, I had to toss that out there because making people laugh is one of the things I enjoy to do the most, even if it’s at my expense.  You all take care.
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Noctis Blackburn is an author, bibliophile, writer, poet, dreamer, star gazer, autodidact, logician, researcher, lover of life, Carmel Macchiatto addict, and more.

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